12/2/2021 - I'm Sad (what a surprise)
Trigger Warning: ED Talk; pet death; depression Thanksgiving was a while ago, but it went better then I thought it would. It was still panic-inducing, but I feel like I ate a good amount of food. Not too much or too little, but a right amount that I felt comfortable with. I feel kind of silly. All of this panic for nothing. I had a fun day with my family and then with my girlfriend later that day, and the only bad part of the day was I put the batteries back in my scale (which I had taken out of my scale for a bit in an attempt to not weigh myself every second I could) and used it. I'm not going to say my weight here because it shouldn't matter (though my mind still tells me it does). I haven't weighed myself in a few days because [I'M BLEEDING FROM SOMEWHERE] and it usually makes me weigh more and I don't want to have anymore breakdowns over how much I weigh. I'm thinking I'm going to try to not weigh myself for a bit because all it does is trigger me into ...