🎀Glitter 'N' Butterflies🎀

TRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDERS/SUICIDAL THOUGHTS SMALL TW: MENTION OF SELF-HARM   So I am having another relapse with my anorexia. Woo. At this point I'm not sure what the fuck I want to do. I want to recover from this, but honestly only to make me girlfriend happy and not cause any damage to our relationship. Maybe that's why it always falls short - I don't try to recover for me. But that's really because I don't really think I need to be better or get help; I feel fine how I am. In fact, I feel happier when I starve myself as opposed to when I eat. When I eat I feel fat and miserable, but when I don't eat and restrict the foods I do eat, I feel thin, strong, and happy. The only thing about it that sucks is how sad it makes my girlfriend feel. So this time I'm just going to lie to her about it, even though it's one of the things I hate most. I mean, I don't care about lying to anyone else, it's just lying to my gf that makes me feel like shit...

Hello! ^^ My name's Gianna. This is my first blog post (obviously). So I'll just make it a little introduction page. Like I said, my name is Gianna. Middle name is Marie. I'm not sharing my last name. I prefer to be called Gigi. I was born August 11th in 2004, which makes me currently 17 years old. I won't share exactly where I live, but I'll say it's in Colorado, USA. I am 5 foot 1 and a half inches tall. I'm a bit - actually, a lot - socially awkward. I like making friends but most the time I try to avoid people because I feel as if I always say and do the wrong things around them and that'll make them hate me, and it gives me major anxiety. I try to be a very friendly person, and I don't judge anybody for any reason, but sometimes someone gets on my nervous by being annoying or just an overall cunt, and sometimes I snap at them. But that rarely happens. I'm not single, I'm dating the best girl in the entire world. We've been together f...