10/5/2021 - Why My Eating Disorder Sucks
Trigger Warning: Eating Disorders So in my last post I was talking about some really sad crap. I mentioned I was having an anorexia relapse. But now I am once again trying to push myself towards recovery, thanks to my girlfriend. I ended up telling her the truth and I just ended up venting to her. About how I don't really want to do this to myself anymore but I don't know how to get better, though I do want to get better. I don't want to hurt myself anymore, I want to be able to think of things other than calories and how much food I'll have to eat in a day. I know my way of thinking isn't healthy. I'm going to list all the things that suck about my eating disorder. This way, whenever I want to go back to restricting my calories, I can read this list and try to remember why I don't want to keep coming back to this. Just a note: Everybody is different and have different feelings about their ED's. Not all of us think exactly the same. So if you read this...